let me stay here with my dream

just so u know, i'm beat right now. i hardly keep my slanted eyes opened, really. this day was outrageously terrible, i don't know why, it's just not going so normal, and not as exhilarating as usual, but just forget about that, i just wanna tell u something that i'm most afraid of for this moment. this is just gonna be a very short post, and i won't work my brain too hard on using proper englih words for now, so forgive me for some grammatical error or something like that.

now let's get started. u know that recently, people keep talking about the end of the world, like 2012 is gonna be the year when everything in this world will be swept all over, just like sweeping the dust on ur floor, everything will all be destroyed, till nothing left in this world, well idk whether it's kinda like that, it's just my imagination based on my so-far knowledge about the end of the world.

and to be frank, i don't believe that. the end of the world is something which is decided of our very God and we, red-blooded human beings don't have any kind of insight of it whatsoever, moreover to determine the actual time of when it will happen. that just doesn't make sense for me, and i do consider it as bullshit. i don't effing care at all. i believe only in God, it's up to Him, about when he wants to end this world, it maybe now, or 5 more seconds, or tomorrow, we'll never know, so don't they even feel so fucking sure about their crap yet bloke-headed theory that 2012 will be the end of the world.

however, disasters keep on coming, for instance the earthquake, and what is that hottest news about some kind of orange fog in australia? i don't know beans about that, but what i know is that, people keep on drawing some parallels about those disasters with the end of the world.

and, to be honest, i'm getting a lil bit petrified.

no, it's not that i'm doubting my God.

i'm just frightened. i dread that i can't fulfil my very dream before everything is gone from this world.

this may sounds that i seem like a selfish toddler, but let me tell u something: my biggest dream, until now, is to travel around the world.

that is just the only reason why i keep on studying, even though literally i'm feeling an ache in my chest, holding up to my bad reality of life, while i have to keep on moving in my life.

i sure am, i don't have any other reason to bear these pain by studying in school, besides to travel around the world.

and well idk what to say.

i'm getting more sad and even more sad as i write further.

i just don't wanna see those things in this world come to an end, before i can touch and feel a grasp of my dream.

do i sound so selfish? yes, i certainly do.

-nanduunanduunanduu-

terforsir karena tertawa

barusan gue posting tentang kesuraman yg gua rasakan krn besok gua harus balik ke sekolah, nah skrg gua akan membagi keceriaan gue kemaren bersama teman2 gua yg sudah dapat d pastikan akan menyabet juara umum apabila ada perlombaan "siapa paling gila".

kemaren, gua, callis, hans, nita, dan hannah pergi berjalan2 ke planetarium dan GI. sebenernya ini udah d plan dari minggu lalu, harusny sabtu lalu jalan2nya, cuma krn seperti biasa kalis, si miss culun universe, dy ga boleh kalo pegi2 naik kereta, jadi dy memberi usul bagaimana kalo kita jalan hari sabtu depan aja, ya berarti kemaren, naik mobilnya callis, supirnya yg nganterin. dan spt biasa, org kayak kalis mana mau rugi lah ya, jadi kita tetep patungan buat duit bensin. hahaha kita jg nyadar diri kog lis.

tadinya plan jalan2 ini masih d ambang kebingungan dan kebimbangan, krn:

1. nita plin plan bukan main, sebentar ikut, sbntr lagi ga ikut, trs ikut lg, trs ga ikut lg, trs ikut lg, kentut deh pokoknya.

2. hans belum minta ijin sama nyokapnya, yg menurut keterangan dari orgnya sendiri, maminya suka tiba2 pelit ga boleh kasih dy jalan. dan kalo ga ada hans, pastinya kita batal, krn dy lah raja bolang yang tau segala seluk-beluk berbolang ria d jakarta.

tapi untungnya segala rintangan dan aral melintang itu daapat d atasi dengan besarnya rasa kekompakan kita. halah. hahaha.

tadinya rencana mau pake baju colorful, jadi warna-warni gitu. tapi berhubung kesulitan untuk membeda2kan dan jg kita adalah manusia yg tidak mau repot, jadinya kita bebas aja lah bajunya, yg penting tdk berbikini.

nah ini ada satu yg aga membingungkan dan gua sendiri baru nyadar pas gue udah pulang. tadiny rencana kita itu mau ke planetarium trs mau ke museum gajah. eh gatau knp, museum gajah d ganti menjadi GI, dan kita semua kayaknya ga nyadar deh. hahhaaha. yasudahlah biarin yg penting d GI jg seru abiz!

tibalah hari H...

nita,hana, dan hans sepakat untuk berkumpul d rumah gue, yg memang dari sedia kala selalu menjadi base-camp kalo mu bepergian, lalu kalo semua dah ngumpul, baru kita barengan naik mobil gue pergi ke rumah kalis. nita, yg paling gaul pastinya pagi2 udah bilang "ndo, gua jam stngh 8 d rumah lu" dan hasilnya nita memang menunjukkan ciri khas org indonesia yg sangat kental dengan sampainya dy d rumah gue pukul 8 lewat. barengan lagi nyampenya sama hana, kalo hana sih emank udah blg ke gue aga telat, soalnya dy ada les dulu. dan hans memang selalu on time, jam stngh 8 sudah sampai.

kemudian, kita bebincang2 sbntr, ketawa2, dan berkunjung melihat joyce yg baru saja melahirkan anak, trs kita berangkat deh ke rumah kalis.

setelah sampai d sana, kita berangkat ke tempat tujuan dengan mobil kalis. dan spt biasa kalo kita semua bertemu, bibir pasti tidak terkontrol, dan d yakini bahwa mobil pasti berguncang2 krn kita semua tertawa kencang sekali dan tidak bisa berhenti2.

lalu sekitar pukul stengah 10an, kita sampe d planetarium. kita beli tiket show yg jam 10, dengan harga 7rb per tiket. lalu kita mulai deh bervoto2.

me - hannah - callis - nita

pertama kita voto sama astronot jejadian itu. dari sini ga keliatan ya kayak astronot, kepalanya kayak pepaya deh.

lalu kita berjalan2 sebentar keliling2 ngeliat macem2 barang gitu abis itu pas udah mau jam 10, kita naik ke tempat shownya.


itu voto bagian atas ruangannya, bentuknya kayak cembung gitu, nanti pas show, jadi gelep trus nanti muncul bintang lah, planet, dan macem2 gitu hahahaha. gua paling suka yg pas kita jadi merasa kayak d dalem pesawat angkasa, trus jadi kayak goyang2 gitu, padahal kita ga goyang, cuma gambarnya yg goyang. seru bgd deh pokoknya! hahhha. dan tidak lupa kita jg bervoto2 d dalem ruangan planetarium. kwokokok.

hans - hannah - me - callis - nita seuprit

hans - hannah - me

me - callis - nita

gua dan yg lain aga naik darah selama show krn banyak emak2 yg bawa bayi dan bayinya ini nangis sepanjang show. please, my ears r bleeding! gua bayar 7rb ya ga pake suara bayi! tapi untunglah kekesalan tertutup oleh kegembiraan karena show yg lumayan keren XD

show nya ini sekitar 1 jam, lalu jam 11 gitu, kita keluar dari ruang show, trs pipis dulu. toilet cowo buset dah, baunya ga kalah sama bau got. gaul abiz.

trs kita keluar dan bervoto2 lagi tentunya d tangga dan d depan gedung planetarium.

me - nita - hans - hannah

nita - callis - me - hans (I like this picture!)

callis - me - hannah - hans

kita pun langsung bergegas menuju ke mobil kalis dan menentukan tempat tujuan berikutnya. tadinya mau ke EX nonton film, tapi kita baru sadar kalo kmrn itu sabtu dan nonton d EX jadinya 50rb! rugi bgd donk ya. jadinya kita berpindah haluan saja ke GI jalan2 dan makan. hehehe. so off we went.

ternyata ke GI dari planetarium itu deket ya, dalam 10 ato 15 menit udah nyampe. trs kita jalan2 dulu voto2 lagi. yak voto terus sepuasnya! ^^

me - hans - hannah - nita

hannah - callis - me - hans

callis - me - hans

me (the food looks delicious, ain't it?)

nita - hannah - callis - me

hans - me

setalah sesi voto2 yang sangat menguras tenaga, kita pun memutuskan untuk ke food court cari makan. setelah pusing2, akhirnya menu yg kami pesan:

-me: mie tarik saus jepang
-kalis dan hana: mie tarik saus italy
-nita: mie tarik ayam
-hans: mie ayam d resto apa gitu ga tau deh

mie tariknya itu semua beli d resto lacker. enak lho! mie tarik tuh mie yg langsung d buat d depan muka kita, kayaknya mereka pamer deh. yang mie ny d kepret2 gitu sampe jadi unyil. eh gua lupa nama restonya lacker ato lackier ato lakier. pokoknya nama resto nya itu. cuma lebih enak mie tarik saus italy daripada mie tarik saus jepang, gua rugi deh beli yg saus jepang, abisnya waktu itu dah pernah coba yg saus italy jadi pengen coba yg beda. trs gua ambil cabe nya kebanyakan lagi. itu cabe khusus mie tarik! ga keliatan kayak cabe, jadi kirain ga pedes. ternyata pedes abiz! minum gua sebotol habis seketika!

hans - me

setelah kita makan, kita jalan2 lagi dan memutuskan untuk beli sour sally. jadi hans dan nita beli sour sally yg small. tadinya gua mau beli jg, cuma akhirnya gua ga jadi, gua pengen coba smooch aja. smooch itu yogurt jg cuma baru gitu deh siapa tau kan enak! jadi kita naik sampe berapa lantai tuh, smooch d atas bgd, lantai 7 ato 8 kalo ga salah.

lalu sampe nih. dan unexpectedly, ternyata smooch tuh cara belinya beda bgd! gua langsung kayak org kampung deh. kalo d sour sally ato J.COOL ato heavenly blush ato apa lah, kita kan tinggal pilih size nya apa, toppingnya apa. nah kalo ini ternyata beda bgd. jadi kalo d smooch itu, yoghurtnya ada 8 pilihan rasa dan 61 topping! dan yg bikin gua pusing, kita ini ngambil sendiri! hadoh mampus deh gua blm pernah yg kayak gini. tapi mau gmn lagi, udah d depan mata, coba aja deh.

jadi cara bayarnya itu d hitung per berat, stiap 10 gr harganya 1.600, kalo lebih dari 100 gr ada potongan 50 gr, jadi potongan 8rb. lumayan kan ya? trs kita bisa pilih yogurt sama toppingnya seenak jidad kita. dan d sinilah sense of ketidakmaurugian kita bekerja. si nita langsung bilang ke gua "eh ndo ambil tuh bubuk milo yg banyak! kan kagak berat tuh". trus gua pikir bener jg ya.hahaha jadi gua ambil deh. trs topping gua tuh semrawutan bgd ga jelas semua tumbuh jadi satu. gau campur2in aja. haha. dan hasilnya punya gue sekitar 19rban gitu. tentunya hans dan nita merasa sangat rugi karena beli d siwer seli hahaha. tapi hans tidak kuasa menahan nafsu nya, akhirnya dy beli lagi yg d smooch sampe 32rb! wuh ngamuk kan. ah pokoknya i fell in love with smooch! enak bgd >.<

me (menikmati smooch yg sangat lezat!)

yoghurt kreasi gue yg jelek sekali penampilannya

setelah kenyang dengan smooch, kita turun trs poto2 lagi sebentar dan pulang deh ke rumah.

hans - me (d tempat yg style old london gitu)

hans - me (di tempat yg bergaya china waha)

kita semua d anter kalis ke rumah gue dulu, baru hans pulang naik angkot, hana pulang naik ojek, dan nita d jemput. tapi sebelum pulang2 kembali lagi voto2 d rumah gua. hahaha. silahkan. voto penutup.

me - hannah - hans (at living room)

nita - me - hannah - hans (at backyard)

hans - me - hannah - nita

(gua sangar yaaa!)



(muka gua sampah)

jadi itulah hari yg sangat gila dan rahang gua rasanya mau putus karena terforsir untuk tertawa seharian. nita jg sampe sakit kepala gr2 ketawa terus.

so thx everyone! yesterday was really wonderful, and needless to say... insane.

-nanduukepanasan-

end my joy

*in an extremely sullen tone...

hi.. hello.. watever..

first thing first. let me tell u something which is dreadfully newsworthy for today:

WE'RE GOING BACK TO THE CRAP SCHOOL!!
PRETTY SOON!
WELL, VERY SOON ACTUALLY!
CAN I BE FRANK?
NOT EVEN 24 HOURS LEFT!!!!
HOLY COW!!!
I'M READY TO BE BURIED TO THE GROUND, RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW!!
HUHUHUHUHUHU

my dear, beloved friends, i know all of u are feeling a completely the same way with me, since tomorrow we all have to go back to our frazzling yet back-breaking everyday routine in school, from sunup till sundown, that we don't even have time to sneeze.

well it's very sad to see that our long, pleasant, holiday has finally come to an end, regardless that i was obviously stuck in a rut during this holiday. to tell u the truth, one week is not enough. ABSOLUTELY NOT ENOUGH! i don't wanna go back to that jail in disguise. i love my home, i love my bed, i love my laptop, i love my life, as long as it stays away from the school stuffs. i do believe that my life would be immaculate if there is no SCHOOL listed in my to-do-list. for now let's just put away those wisdom words saying that school is very important for ur future, to be a successful person, blablabla. i knew that, since i was still a docile, cute 5-year-old child my parents n everyone around me kept telling me about that. but u know something, with all due respect, school seems like an overkill now. i don't know how other people's perspective about school, but yes, i despise being in school, well ya but of course i don't despise being with my friends in school.

i'm dying to feel the fresh air. being in school is no different with being trapped in an enclosed room with no oxygen at all. everytime i remember about goin back to school, i swear to God, i just wanna go out and shoot a deer -.-

and the teachers r even more crap than ever. stop giving us assignments, stop telling us to do this and that. stop giving tests with outrageously hard materials and please stop thinking that we study for one lesson only in school! we have only one brain, it's a general truth, everybody knows that, n i know teachers know that. now do they realize just how many subjects we have to learn at school? i even forget about it, it's about 13 or something, well 13 is an unlucky number, hopefully it's not that. and do they expect us to share this one little brain into 13 parts?! heck with it, i'm not going to do that!!

well i believe i am definitely capable of making an essay with the title "How Scum My School is" but of course not here, it'll be a blatant maneuver.

just to tell u how i felt this morning. today is sunday, which should be a very delightful day to cheer urself up with a cup of chocolate with marshmallow dipped into it or whatsoever, but not that one of them happened to me. i was sort of about to roll out of my bed this morning, but then i layed motionless in my bed with my eyes opened and just when this thought came crossing my mind, the thought of going back to school, in just a matter of second i felt a terrible indignation in my head! it's so unfair to get this such a short holiday. i can't ever accept it. huhuhuhu. and that was quite a bad starting for the morning of my last day in my holiday.

i've forced myself for so many times to fancy my "lovely" school, but i know it will never happen. n i know it'll never happen to u either. so to hell with school.

-nanduumerasasangatkesalkalauharussekolahterus-

Happy B'day Hans!

Happy 16th birthday to my down-syndrome BFF, Hanryano/Hanryono Yehezkiel Sarungallo!


Wishing you days as colorful as those balloons up there, with lots of surprises hopping your way!

-nanduumenunggutraktiran-

I fell, literally fell to the ground!

Hi, buddies. How r u all doin? Has today been a great day for u? Whatever ur answer is, I can say that today is not a really lucky day for me, ya not that crap too actually, but i just happened to suffer a bit of disaster.

20 minutes ago, my mother asked me to take a room-fragrance refill which was kept in the car. i needed to take it out, and put a few drops of it onto the room-fragrance thingy, which is very hard to explain how it looks like, but this is the kinda room-fragrance which works by using the power of light, and this light will cause some kind of heat on the surface, then the fragrance will be heated and evaporate, so the fragrance will fill the entire room.

well, of course i didn't have any problem just to take that thing out of the car, apart from the lazyness-to-take-my-ass-out-of-the-chair thing. so, i walked out of the house, headed towards the car, and all of a sudden, i fell down with a very awkward position, my right leg was layed straight forward, and my left leg was kinda bent, sort of that thing. so the part which was injured is my left leg's knee. and i felt like a grown up! really. it's been quite a long time since the last time i fell to the ground and i do actually remember whenever i fell, i used to scream and shout "AAAWWW", but this time, wow i looked totally cool, haha i didn't expect that too. so here how i looked like. i fell to the ground, and then i was like silent for some seconds, 3 or more, and then i didn't know why, i spit this word out "shit". and u know what, i talked that, slowly, calmly softly, and with all of the hatred inside my heart and pain inside my mind. shieeeetttt. it would sound like that. haha. so i guess i'm quite a grown-up now, ain't i?

but i just pretended to be a tough one, having fallen like that, i still did my duty, to take that fucking room-fragrance refill, and i walked back to my house, and i told my father that i fell just now. then, he gave me, what's that, i don't know what it's called, it's like something to cure the wound, like betadine, but it's not that, it's like the China one. ya i don't know what it is. but what i'm so sure, it hurts so much. oh my goodness gracious, my father poured a lil bit of it onto a slice of cotton, and he just cruelly, roughly, rubbed it all over the wound. and i was like trying to bear the pain, which was incredibly painful. but what my father did was just heartlessly talked to me, "the pain will just be this once, it will dry soon and recover by itself." mm okay ,ya it will recover, but it hurts dad!

so, now my knee and the small area around it looks like yellow slash orange slash brown. it is freakin' gross. iuhh. Take a look at this!

my injured knee
Hope it will recover soon!

-nanduumaujalan2kemanagitukek-

School or Holiday?

Hello all! What's buzzin' cousin? I've got 2 options here. Feel free to choose.

1. SCHOOL

2. HOLIDAY

Which one did u choose? So, u thought it is better than the other one, huh?

I believe, it goes without saying that most of us, in just matter of seconds, decided to choose being in a holiday, rather than being tortured by the whole school stuffs. and considering myself as a human being, just like u (hopefully), i do feel like that. well, of course holiday is like something that i'm really waiting for, like it always comes to my mind, "how many days left towards the holiday?" and lately i've been feeling like, attending school, is merely some kind of the pain that i have to suffer before i can feel the heaven, which is holiday. literally, school nowadays is even more sucks than ever before. i don't know why, is it the ASS-ignments? YES! or is it the tests? TWO YESES! or perhaps the teachers? THREE YESES!

so, ya, holiday is definitely the time when i can get my private, leisure time, and just completely focusing on how to keep myself away from desperation, apart from being the cretinous one. and it's also the time when i can let myself be an idler or a loafer, for a short period, cause i really need to be that, every once in a while.

well, for this holiday, nothing much that i do, i found myself mostly dorking off and doing unimportant things, which are thoroughly a boring way to spend my holiday. sometimes, i went on vacation to bandung or puncak with my family. but for this occasion, we decided not to go anywhere, remembering the traffic jam that we surely have to suffer if we go on a vacation in eid ul-fitr holiday, and u know something, I'M EFFING BORED! but not like some of my friends, feeling bored of holiday, they kept saying things of going back to school. well i don't have any intention to do so though. for my perspective, holiday is still slightly a lot more fun than attending school, particularly when we have something interesting to do.

now what about you? do you prefer being on a boring holiday or a torturing-to-death holiday? lyberalism is guaranteed here, so any of two is fine, choose the one that u like :)

-nanduubelommandi-

Happy Eid ul-Fitr 1430 H

May all of our hearts filled with forgiveness and let us all strive for peace and moral victory!

-nanduujugamakanlontong-