end my joy

*in an extremely sullen tone...

hi.. hello.. watever..

first thing first. let me tell u something which is dreadfully newsworthy for today:

WE'RE GOING BACK TO THE CRAP SCHOOL!!
PRETTY SOON!
WELL, VERY SOON ACTUALLY!
CAN I BE FRANK?
NOT EVEN 24 HOURS LEFT!!!!
HOLY COW!!!
I'M READY TO BE BURIED TO THE GROUND, RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW!!
HUHUHUHUHUHU

my dear, beloved friends, i know all of u are feeling a completely the same way with me, since tomorrow we all have to go back to our frazzling yet back-breaking everyday routine in school, from sunup till sundown, that we don't even have time to sneeze.

well it's very sad to see that our long, pleasant, holiday has finally come to an end, regardless that i was obviously stuck in a rut during this holiday. to tell u the truth, one week is not enough. ABSOLUTELY NOT ENOUGH! i don't wanna go back to that jail in disguise. i love my home, i love my bed, i love my laptop, i love my life, as long as it stays away from the school stuffs. i do believe that my life would be immaculate if there is no SCHOOL listed in my to-do-list. for now let's just put away those wisdom words saying that school is very important for ur future, to be a successful person, blablabla. i knew that, since i was still a docile, cute 5-year-old child my parents n everyone around me kept telling me about that. but u know something, with all due respect, school seems like an overkill now. i don't know how other people's perspective about school, but yes, i despise being in school, well ya but of course i don't despise being with my friends in school.

i'm dying to feel the fresh air. being in school is no different with being trapped in an enclosed room with no oxygen at all. everytime i remember about goin back to school, i swear to God, i just wanna go out and shoot a deer -.-

and the teachers r even more crap than ever. stop giving us assignments, stop telling us to do this and that. stop giving tests with outrageously hard materials and please stop thinking that we study for one lesson only in school! we have only one brain, it's a general truth, everybody knows that, n i know teachers know that. now do they realize just how many subjects we have to learn at school? i even forget about it, it's about 13 or something, well 13 is an unlucky number, hopefully it's not that. and do they expect us to share this one little brain into 13 parts?! heck with it, i'm not going to do that!!

well i believe i am definitely capable of making an essay with the title "How Scum My School is" but of course not here, it'll be a blatant maneuver.

just to tell u how i felt this morning. today is sunday, which should be a very delightful day to cheer urself up with a cup of chocolate with marshmallow dipped into it or whatsoever, but not that one of them happened to me. i was sort of about to roll out of my bed this morning, but then i layed motionless in my bed with my eyes opened and just when this thought came crossing my mind, the thought of going back to school, in just a matter of second i felt a terrible indignation in my head! it's so unfair to get this such a short holiday. i can't ever accept it. huhuhuhu. and that was quite a bad starting for the morning of my last day in my holiday.

i've forced myself for so many times to fancy my "lovely" school, but i know it will never happen. n i know it'll never happen to u either. so to hell with school.

-nanduumerasasangatkesalkalauharussekolahterus-

Happy B'day Hans!

Happy 16th birthday to my down-syndrome BFF, Hanryano/Hanryono Yehezkiel Sarungallo!


Wishing you days as colorful as those balloons up there, with lots of surprises hopping your way!

-nanduumenunggutraktiran-

I fell, literally fell to the ground!

Hi, buddies. How r u all doin? Has today been a great day for u? Whatever ur answer is, I can say that today is not a really lucky day for me, ya not that crap too actually, but i just happened to suffer a bit of disaster.

20 minutes ago, my mother asked me to take a room-fragrance refill which was kept in the car. i needed to take it out, and put a few drops of it onto the room-fragrance thingy, which is very hard to explain how it looks like, but this is the kinda room-fragrance which works by using the power of light, and this light will cause some kind of heat on the surface, then the fragrance will be heated and evaporate, so the fragrance will fill the entire room.

well, of course i didn't have any problem just to take that thing out of the car, apart from the lazyness-to-take-my-ass-out-of-the-chair thing. so, i walked out of the house, headed towards the car, and all of a sudden, i fell down with a very awkward position, my right leg was layed straight forward, and my left leg was kinda bent, sort of that thing. so the part which was injured is my left leg's knee. and i felt like a grown up! really. it's been quite a long time since the last time i fell to the ground and i do actually remember whenever i fell, i used to scream and shout "AAAWWW", but this time, wow i looked totally cool, haha i didn't expect that too. so here how i looked like. i fell to the ground, and then i was like silent for some seconds, 3 or more, and then i didn't know why, i spit this word out "shit". and u know what, i talked that, slowly, calmly softly, and with all of the hatred inside my heart and pain inside my mind. shieeeetttt. it would sound like that. haha. so i guess i'm quite a grown-up now, ain't i?

but i just pretended to be a tough one, having fallen like that, i still did my duty, to take that fucking room-fragrance refill, and i walked back to my house, and i told my father that i fell just now. then, he gave me, what's that, i don't know what it's called, it's like something to cure the wound, like betadine, but it's not that, it's like the China one. ya i don't know what it is. but what i'm so sure, it hurts so much. oh my goodness gracious, my father poured a lil bit of it onto a slice of cotton, and he just cruelly, roughly, rubbed it all over the wound. and i was like trying to bear the pain, which was incredibly painful. but what my father did was just heartlessly talked to me, "the pain will just be this once, it will dry soon and recover by itself." mm okay ,ya it will recover, but it hurts dad!

so, now my knee and the small area around it looks like yellow slash orange slash brown. it is freakin' gross. iuhh. Take a look at this!

my injured knee
Hope it will recover soon!

-nanduumaujalan2kemanagitukek-

School or Holiday?

Hello all! What's buzzin' cousin? I've got 2 options here. Feel free to choose.

1. SCHOOL

2. HOLIDAY

Which one did u choose? So, u thought it is better than the other one, huh?

I believe, it goes without saying that most of us, in just matter of seconds, decided to choose being in a holiday, rather than being tortured by the whole school stuffs. and considering myself as a human being, just like u (hopefully), i do feel like that. well, of course holiday is like something that i'm really waiting for, like it always comes to my mind, "how many days left towards the holiday?" and lately i've been feeling like, attending school, is merely some kind of the pain that i have to suffer before i can feel the heaven, which is holiday. literally, school nowadays is even more sucks than ever before. i don't know why, is it the ASS-ignments? YES! or is it the tests? TWO YESES! or perhaps the teachers? THREE YESES!

so, ya, holiday is definitely the time when i can get my private, leisure time, and just completely focusing on how to keep myself away from desperation, apart from being the cretinous one. and it's also the time when i can let myself be an idler or a loafer, for a short period, cause i really need to be that, every once in a while.

well, for this holiday, nothing much that i do, i found myself mostly dorking off and doing unimportant things, which are thoroughly a boring way to spend my holiday. sometimes, i went on vacation to bandung or puncak with my family. but for this occasion, we decided not to go anywhere, remembering the traffic jam that we surely have to suffer if we go on a vacation in eid ul-fitr holiday, and u know something, I'M EFFING BORED! but not like some of my friends, feeling bored of holiday, they kept saying things of going back to school. well i don't have any intention to do so though. for my perspective, holiday is still slightly a lot more fun than attending school, particularly when we have something interesting to do.

now what about you? do you prefer being on a boring holiday or a torturing-to-death holiday? lyberalism is guaranteed here, so any of two is fine, choose the one that u like :)

-nanduubelommandi-

Happy Eid ul-Fitr 1430 H

May all of our hearts filled with forgiveness and let us all strive for peace and moral victory!

-nanduujugamakanlontong-

The Bird and the Bee - How Deep is your Love

I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touched me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love and then softly leave
And it's me you need to show

Reff:

How deep is your love, is your love
How deep is your love
I really need to learn
'Cause we're livin' in the world of fools
Breaking us down
The should all just let us be
We belong to you and me

I believe in you
You know the door to my very soul
You're the light in my deepest, darkest hour
You're my savior when I fall

And you may not think that I care for you
When you know down inside that I really do
And it's me you need to show

*Back to reff*

This is the lyric of "How Deep is your Love". I guess most of you know this song pretty well, since this is actually quite an old song, and this one is the new version, dexterously sang by the bird and the bee, well in fact it's not that new. I just love the type of the bird and the bee's song, they seem like wind, blowing softly, lightly, like every melody and lyric of this song calms my soul, and I absolutely love it.

Now i just want to put myself in a small wondering box.

I'd have to say, this song is a bit sad. If u don't find it that way, try to reread that lyric up there, slowly, try to put yourself as the person in the song. Do you get it?

Once, I was just wondering to myself, imagining, making a fake story of mine based on this song, pretty much about a girl, falling in love, feeling so secure by the love that's given by the boy, and just so sure that the boy was his prince charming, who was gonna be the one, and everything else, except when that moment came crashing down, and she realized that he has unreasonably wandered away from her, and he ended just as the part of her past, but nothing could the girl do.

Hahaha, was it to much? It's just my IMAGINATION, again, IMAGINATION. don't think too much about it. hahhaa.

But having imagined about that story, it leaves me one question:

Can we love someone without having to feel afraid of losing her/him?

guess who can give me an answer...

-nanduukesalbanyaknyamuk-

stupidity tries

Hey people. good avro. absolutely pleased to see u all again, hopefully in a nice condition!

i just wanna share some little unimportant things with u. i don't know how, it just came to my mind, this idea of making silly things out of my photos, my friends and me actually. i used these features i found in adobe photoshop to create some funny elements in my photos and it turned out outrageously funny, and yeah, stupid! u know i'm not an expert about these things, like some of my friends, making ordinary photo, conjure a spell on it, and POOF, they transformed into a magical one, and it looked beautifully amazing indeed. ya, i hope i can learn from them, maybe, someday later... haha, 'cause i have to admit that i can be categorized as the lazy ones, and ya, lazy.. so i don't think i have much time to put my creativity and everything else into my photo and making some extraordinary ones. so, what i used to create this dumb things was by using the distort and kinda stuffs like that. it's easy, simple, practical, and i love those things like that, things that don't make my brain work as hard as a slave. i just needed to click it, and the photos just changed by themselves, into the stupid ones of course. so here are some results, and i do burst out into laughing everytime i take a look on them. hahaha. ENJOY.

Callis - Hans - Me

seems like the main victim in here is hans. just look at those pics, hans is always be the one who gets the most broken edit and his face just turns swirling here, swirling there. hahhaa that's hilarious.

-nanduusukamendengarlaguinstrumental-